themaknae

2011-03-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA OMG
my blogspot has been COMPLETELY abandoned for a time now.
as you can see, you can't even reach my tumblr from the link in the previous post.
that's because I've ~~changed~~ improvised my tumblr url a few times in the past 6 months. xD
now it's

http://likeakpopper.tumblr.com/

:D
welcome abroad fellow kpoppers~ <3

2010-10-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE!!!!!!!

http://kpopfangirl-id207.tumblr.com/

MY TUMBLR!

might be dumping this blog for real...... because tumblr is so convenient at reblogging! XDDD

but then again, you can check back this blog once a while to see more surprises! XD

BYE~~ :D

P/S: I'm still doing well! HAHA. just no mood for blogging already. :)

2010-09-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

I'M LIKE THROWING THIS BLOG AWAY? HAHA.

you can check back once a while for surprises though. LOL

2010-07-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

hey world. I just feel like writing again. maybe because being at the bottom of a well means there's nothing else better to do than to spill everything out through a dead blog. since no one is reading anyway.

so on the 9th day in my 17th year of life, people are excited about sister's birthday. lobsters, crabs, wine. none of my thing.

what pissed me off the most is when they're deciding on a cake.
Baskin Robins ice cream cake?
yeah why not?
duuh, not for the youngest, that is.

what did they answer me when I asked for one?
they said we were broke and we've got to cut cost!

so what now? we've won a lottery in 9 days?

I practically hate everything about being me and myself, except the fact that I have crazy whacky friends.

and only they know what I think.

my own mother doesn't even know what I like the best. and my family doesn't even care much about me, when their bank accounts clearly show the decline in income. yeah, money matters more than the youngest daughter.

my family have never made me cry on my birthdays. okay, maybe once. but that was out of loneliness and sadness. for the first time my friends made me cry on my birthday when I turned 15. because I'm a pure fangirl and what fangirls want is just simply, simply their idols, virtual or real, or just simply anything about them. and they know that. and the second time I cry on birthday was just 9 days ago. it's like heaven in school and when the bell rings I'm all alone in my isolated world at home again.

/brb gotta clean up the wet keyboard

2010-05-17T19:47:00.000+08:00

STUDY.

Suddenly there are like so many geniuses in the class.
Shit la, all so hardworking!!
This time, imma show them I'm not weak either!! D<

2010-05-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

DEBBIE LIOW, stop looking at guys!
Exam's just around the corner!

And DON'T, ever, ever, click the "Add as friend" button!! *bares teeth*

Shewpit temptation. D;
Makes me yell at myself. Rawr!!

2010-04-22T19:43:00.003+08:00

As always, my blog becomes my little 'private' space (because I'm not like some people who heboh-hebohkan their blogspots so nobody really knows I have one and even though people know, not like they come and read anyways), where I spit out aaaallll my thoughts, good or bad, and things I want to say but couldn't.

So I've had a very long day.

Thursday is always the day where I wear school uniform from 630am to 6pm. Almost 12 hours. Half a day.

We had some PE tests today, where we do sit-ups, pumpings and naik turun bangku in a certain fixed time. I was never good at them, because I'm the kind who chills at home, not willing to sweat a lot. I ended up exhausted, and having to climb the stairs up to the 4th floor makes it worse. And what makes it worse, I had tuition til 10pm last night, and just when I ended my class, I got a phonecall asking me to do some stuff. Okay, I admit I wanted to help, but when I got home and found out what I gotta do, I didn't want to already. My eyelids were getting heavier and heavier every minute, til I gave up and went to bed. Being sleep deprived, I gotta do some vigorous exercise in the next morning, AND CLIMB THE STAIRS SO MANY TIMES. I don't understand why the teachers love the labs so much. They don't even make full use of the facilities there. White board? We have that in our classroom. What else? We didn't do any experiments today. Well, they're probably lazy to climb to the top floor after all.

The new seating plan in class isn't helping either. Just because of some fucking talking machines (not that I'm not one, but AT LEAST I KNOW when to shut up) in class, ALL of us has to change places. But of course, the usual rebellious me maintained at my own place, but Zoe moved. Having to sit with someone not in the same wavelength, all I can do is just learn from her and do my work with her, yeah she's a smartie. But losing some energizing pills....... isn't gonna help me stay awake during lessons. Well, not like I stayed awake all the time while I was with her anyway. Just, a lil bit depressing now. I can't keep quiet and stay still, you know that.

Then comes bio lessons. As always, the teacher talks and talks, but her expressions and voice tones can't keep me awake and focused. To be honest and straightforward, she just looks like a zombie talking to... no one. Sitting in front would make it worse (I just realized), because her voice would be so loud and annoying to my eardrums. Plus the fact that everything about her seems so sleepy and dead, and having to sit right in front of her... no-no. Sitting at the back works better, in a sense that her voice isn't so loudly-annoying. But no one's going to the back with me except Angie........ you know I kinda like groupings more than pairings, and again, I can't stay still! I need more people and more things to keep me awake, for goodness' sake.

And after school, I had to stay back for Chinese class until 330pm. Then straight to physics tuition until 530pm. I get stuck in the slow jam until 610pm before I reach home and finally get to take a shower AND EAT MY DINNER.

But today, the stress that was once relieved came back again. Thinking that I am satisfied, and people would be satisfied, I could now focus on other things that's due deadline soon. But no, I'm just a noob after all. I would probably be creative and artistic like any other arts students, but no. The Malaysian education system ruined me. I'm now trained and polished just to score As in exams, not to think creatively and be innovative. I don't even get to use the computers in school, let alone learning what computers can do to ease our lives. Just when I started blogging, kids around my age in Singapore have already started learning HTML and designing webpages. They're all over the place in blogskins.com.

Frankly speaking, designing posters and t-shirts on the computer is a first time for me. AND with the level of creativity I'm having (even though I had a distinction for grade 8 piano exams, I can't play by ear. and THAT's the effect of learning for the sake of exams. and I fucking hate the fact that I can't play by ear), I couldn't do anything but to simply pass up some drafts. Fortunately with some help from others, I came up with an idea. And I really think they're nice. Just like how some people made their classrooms into some prison with black walls, but they themselves think it's cool.

But I have to do everything to suit everyone's taste. I waited for 2 weeks for a PROPER REPLY. Since then I moved on to other tasks. And finally a reply in my inbox. Amendments, again. I'm super easily distracted. Having so many tasks on hand to be done within a certain time limit, where the hell do I start first? Do I need to stare at the comp screen without blinking for a few hours time working on the designs again? Surely I do that all the time, but it was enjoying. Youtube, allkpop, facebook, games. But this is stressful. Photoshop and designing AREN'T my thing at all. Yet I still try. Everything has its first times, no? And things get tiring, I know.

Having slapped with last minute works in the past 2 weeks, I was so stressed and I cried. Out of hatred, out of stress. Those "last minute works" are different from the homeworks assigned at school okay. I didn't see them coming. I wouldn't know what I have to do in the next hour until I open my inbox. School homeworks are different, they were assigned earlier, which I have obviously procrastinated and ignored until the teacher threatens to minus marks from exams (which is quite a good thing to practice in school to make students hand in the work on time, but what the fuck?! it doesn't affect PMR or SPM at all! everything's still based on answering techniques, that's all! it's what matters the most in the end. a beautiful cert with all A's.).

I haven't been visiting allkpop for straight 3-4 days. I don't know since when. I haven't been keeping in touch with the updates lately. I want to see 2PM's comeback, Jerry's debut, and all the resumptions of the music shows (except mubank). I want to relieve stress. I need some laughs from Korean variety shows. I need rest too. But most of all, I NEED TIME. I'm surely not the only hedonist in the world who complains that 24 hours a day is not enough.

And I wish I could write essays as easily as spitting out heartfelt words like this.

2010-04-13T18:57:00.001+08:00

One word:

Daebak.

:D

2010-04-12T20:30:00.001+08:00

Don't fucking piss me off with all your bossiness!

2010-04-12T17:42:00.001+08:00

I fucking hate people who throw tasks at me out of sudden, and expect me to finish it within 8 hours (counted, on average).

Happened to me yesterday AND today.

Like I had nothing else to do!

I almost got scolded yesterday because I couldn't be ubiquitous like the Phantom of the Opera. (wth right!)

I don't know why I took up the task anyway.

Someone teach me how to say no?

2010-04-09T23:00:00.002+08:00

I hate having crushes. They crush your heart into pieces for no apparent reason. I shouldn't fall in love so easily.

Hmph.

2010-04-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

HEY BLOGOSPHERE I'M STILL ALIVE.

IT'S BEEN CONFIRMED. AWESOME.
Camp's on 10-13 June.
UKISS on 19 June.
AWESOMES.

I was so distressed when I found out they're coming on the 19th when the camp's date was REALLY probably going to be clashing with it.

THANK GOODNESS everyone agreed to have the camp on the 10th instead.

SO!

We've reserved 4 tics for ACE seat packages~
Even though we're doubting it's a scam or something.
Good thing we don't have to pay first. ^^

And zomgzomgzomgzomg, did you see Xander's tweets?
Like seriously, you could see the bond between him and his family. o__o
And that makes me love him even more. :P

Okay, I really really really have lotsa things to say/type, but fitting every single one in a blogspot is gonna fail for sure. :D

Some other time? ^^

2010-03-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

Okay, I admit was writing a story. More like a fanfic.

But nvm, it doesn't matter now.
Because.... I stopped halfway. :P

Gaaaaaaaah! I've been thinking about lotsa things lately - camp stuff, homework, and above all, I was super excited for Super Show 2, which kind of distracted me from my fic. :/

Anyway, Super Show 2 was freaking awesome. :)

Boo you those who missed it. :P

SORIJILLYEO!!!!!

Sexy Fishy on his knees during his introduction. :P

WOOKIE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. Screamed my lungs out.

Okay, I admit I sorta zoomed a lil bit so that the picture doesn't include hands and glowsticks and other cameras. :x

BUT IT'S SO FREAKING CLOSE LAAAAAAA!

390 bucks for closeups okay. :D Lovelovelove.

Sexy Fishy in front of us. :DDDDDDD

There, this is actual distance. :)

Nyaaaaaaaaaa! Overall the concert was freaking chunted.

Although we missed Hankyung, Kangin and Kibum. :/

Seriously, Kibum, please come back to Suju's activities. :(

Kibum was my first crush in Suju. Waaaaaaaaay back in Love Letter. :(

Hankyung, loved him waaaaaaaaaaaay back in Full House. :(

Goosshhh, please come back to the stage with Suju. T_____T

Kangin.... aahhh, we'll see him again after some time, for sure.

Haaiihh.

Anyways, ZHOUMI'S FACE IS PURRRRRRRRRRFECTTT. DDDD8

/endrandom.

Dang, I should organize my paragraphs properly. :/

2010-03-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

I'm not romantic. :(

I make Romeo and Juliet sound cheesy. :(

2010-03-15T20:05:00.001+08:00

Hi. :D

I changed my blogskin, AGAIN.
HAHAHA.

Naega geureoke, reoke manmanhani?

2010-03-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

I'm joining a maths+logic competition hosted by Taylor's Actuarial Science Club ~~tomorrow~~ later this afternoon.
Not that I'm good at add math, I'm just .... well ... hahaha in Chinese we say "butt itchy".

Certificate of Participation

Woooooooooooow!
LOL.

Anyway, Super Show II is near!!
Just 5 days left (*coughcoughit'sturned12amnow*) wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh!
I'm borrowing a blue top from Zoe specially for this day. :D

Blue balloons to spare, anyone?

I WANT THAT SPECS! :(

And Kevin Woo. :P

2010-03-12T21:48:00.004+08:00

Awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome ......... x999,999,999

I'm posting them up here so my realplayer downloader can work HAHA.
Yes I'm THAT desperate.
It doesn't work on chrome and firefox anymore. T__T
IE is suckish. -.-

2010-03-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

I discovered a thing, a lil later than any other normal internet-addicts.

www.twitter.com/debbieat173cm

Yeah. Hunnylemon was taken. Hunnytree was taken. Hunnybee was taken. Hunnydeb is a too cheesy to be used to communicate with Xander and Kevin.

No Pooh mania. :(

AND YES THAT IS MY HEIGHT, DON'T FREAK OUT.
And yes I'd like to share my height with you too, so please develop a surgery - height transplant. :D

Anyway, the ONLY reason why I joined is because, Xander, Kevin, Eli, Tablo, Rain, Joonie, Doongie and many others have twitter. :D

Some of them aren't real though.

But imma try tweeting Xander someday. :P

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I just love his hairstyle in Bingeulx2. So smexy~ :P

And zoommgg I didn't know he's the oldest in U-Kiss until I wiki-ed.
He's such a dork.

And and and! The hyung + maknae = LOVELOVELOVE!

Kekekekekeke. Okay I'm done spazzing....... for the moment.

Pyong~!

2010-02-28T21:22:00.000+08:00

Geez, why do I keep reading up about those issues and fan accounts?

It makes me even more sad that I am now.

Even though I can't be considered as a REAL fan, I do appreciate the music and the entertainment they've given us and the impact they've brought to the world of kpop.

Heck, I'm considering about deleting all my 2PM Heartbeat videos.

I feel like I'm a bit closer to the truth with every fan accounts I read. I really hope they're not exaggerated though. But they were the ones who posted fan accounts online to inform international fans about everything they know. Very much received my respect and gratitude I'd say, since I couldn't even understand Korean, let alone fly over to Korea and stalk them 24/7.

Hell I can't even type properly and organize my paragraphs and thoughts. I'm so gonna fail in my essays in first term.

2010-02-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Dear Debbie Liow, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Your view on yourself:
- You are down-to-earth
- People like you because you are so straightforward
- You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
- You are a true romantic
- When you are in love
- You will do anything
- Everything to keep your love true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
- You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
- And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person

The seriousness of your love:
- Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex
- In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive
- So you will find yourself with plenty of dates

Your views on education:
- You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
- You listen to your own instincts
- Tend to follow your heart
- So you will probably end up with an unusual job

The right job for you:
- You're a practical person
- Will choose a secure job with a steady income
- Knowing what you like to do is important
- Find a regular job doing just that
- You'll be set for life

How do you view success:
- You are afraid of failure
-: Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
- Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:
- You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
- You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
- Independence is important to you

Maybe you should try it. It's an app on Facebook. And it's... scarily 90% accurate. ;_;

2010-02-21T12:21:00.002+08:00

Kekeke!

I -heart- this shot. :D

Though it makes my legs look short....

2010-02-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

I should hide in my shell, all over again.

2010-02-07T10:41:00.001+08:00

2010-02-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

BWAHAHAHAHAHA. I guess I'll start photo blogging again soon. But I'll have to filter ALL the pics first. X__X
And get the others from Shu by tonight. ;)

2010-01-30T23:08:00.001+08:00

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I want to add this to the blogskin.

But it doesn't seem to fit with 2NE1. :X

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

2010-01-30T15:21:00.002+08:00

This is SO CUTE.

But this is CUTER. :D
Added with some hotness and smexiness.
Like an English speaking machine.

See-wee-ious-lee, there's SOMETHING in his voice.....
Nah, you gotta have headphones on to hear that properly.

YOU SHOULDN'T DO THAT.

2010-01-30T14:18:00.007+08:00

No offense intended.

But seriously, we all think he's weird. :/

And THAT is what's keeping us entertained throughout the whole boring school day. :)

Other than that, he's willing to do ANYTHING you ask him to. :) :)

/endrandom.

I JUST REALIZED TINYPIC BANNED MY IP ADDRESS? How and wtf?! I don't even use tinypic! Until just now when I tried to upload that gif, it says my IP address is banned. ._.

2010-01-29T21:59:00.003+08:00

You know how nice is it to have someone in the same age group to talk to?

Like being in the same wavelength, having the same thoughts of the *coughpoliticscough* and any other surrounding issues.

That's why I can't communicate well with younger kids and older people. -.-

Like I can't tune my frequency to any other channels.......

2010-01-28T14:19:00.001+08:00

YAY. CHANGED BLOGSKIN.
Going for girl bands this time. :P
Because 2NE1 is just tooo aweessommee to ignore. :D

2010-01-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

Cannot.

Beh tahan liao.

I want to change blogskin.

I saw awesome new blogskins on blogskins.com. T___T

2010-01-23T13:55:00.001+08:00

I CAN'T STOP REPLAYING THIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

And I should not start piling up my homework. :D

Lmao that's random.

/endpost.

2010-01-17T21:57:00.004+08:00

Here are some facts:

1. I hate people who walk slowly in front of me in shopping centers.

2. I hate it when my parents compare me to other kids.

3. I love it when the parents are out of the house!

4. I hate it when parents get serious about something funny I tell them.

5. I LOVE texting the person next to me stuff that I can't say out loud.

6. I hate cigarettes.

7. I hate standing alone and awkwardly in public when I'm waiting for a friend.

8. Before I go to sleep, I start imagining stuff that I would like to happen.

9. I hate it when my parents say no, and I was really excited.

10. Smoking doesn't make you cool, sorry.

11. When I was little, I watched raindrops on the window to see which one 'won'.

12. I hate those people who takes a long time to reply one simple message!

13. We talk to each other on the computer, but in public it's awkward.

14. If the world ends in 2012, I've wasted my whole life in school... lovely.

15. I hate waking up during a good dream and it won't come back!

16. I hate it when you make plans....get excited.....and they never happen.

17. I also don't know what to do while they sing me Happy Birthday.

18. Whenever I miss a day of school, everything happens! :(

19. If I could remember school work like I remember lyrics I'd be like a genius.

20. I hate Sejarah because it's useless!!!!

21. I hate pimples.

22. I still laugh when everyone else is over it.

23. No I have nothing to hide, I just like the door to be shut.

24. I need more MONEY!!!

25. I hate teachers who can't pronounce my name!!

26. I read the group name, I laugh, I join, I never look at it again.

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Did you realize that these are fanpages on Facebook?

Yeah. Those lines are true, I become a fan, and then I never look at it again.

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LeeU. :3

2010-01-16T20:22:00.001+08:00

Last year to be in school~
72 steps up, 72 steps down, total 4 trips to the stairs in one day. That makes 288 steps per day. Omg.
I should monitor my weight.

2010-01-14T18:32:00.001+08:00

It's so true that one can't tell what his/her weaknesses are but others can.

You know what?

To that SOMEONE out there, YOU'RE A BITCH.

2010-01-12T14:06:00.002+08:00

What's so good about being in the first 3 classes?

You get to exercise everyday, ensure your brains are working well, with 6 flights of stairs, to the 4th floor, 72 steps per trip, a total of 4 trips made (up to class, down to recess, up back to class, down to homesweethome), and that's 288 steps in total.

Bad side?

Toilets are on the lowest floor, and girls' toilets being at the end of the other block. So you cannot blame us for hogging the pass so long just for a trip to the toilets ok.

You've gotta go through 2 floors, of which are crowded with people who are.... generally not intellectual and more..... wild.
That makes me recall, when I was in primary year 6, my trip to jalan-jalan around upstairs (where all the other year 6 classes were as my class was the only lonely year 6 one on the 2nd floor) after recess was..... not so enjoying. You know. Kids. Playing around with each other in the corridor. And they play.... rough. Laughters. Yells. SWEATDROPS. All in the narrow corridor. I remember we had to dodge any flying objects (eg. sweatdrops) or sweaty running guys in the corridor.

Friend: Oh my, this is like walking in a zoo.

Me thinks: More like a monkeys' habitat.

It's like deja vu.
Now after recess, we have to climb the stairs to the highest floor, and along the way on the stairs, we have to TRY not to walk so close with them. It's always better to stay away.

And also dodge any flying bottles. ._.

2010-01-03T19:49:00.002+08:00

Final year in school uniform.

What the hell am I doing here?
I was supposed to buck up for SPM, and recap all form 4 syllabus in the holidays.
I ended up thinking how to pass JYP auditions, which I seem to have a better chance compared to YG and SME.

Heck.
If the whole 2012 thing is really real, I'll screw up my life first before having to end it.
Screw SPM. Spend all my angpao money in the bank for a ticket to Korea. Do things I shouldn't be doing, like going against parents' wishes. I should learn from Rain and Jae, how they'd survived all the auditions and trainings with no money. ;D

I tell you, I'm happy for the fact that mom supports me in pursueing music (though I think I'm still half tonedeaf), but I'm definitely NOT HAPPY that that's because she wants me to teach kids how to play the piano.

Back to school. Uggghhh.

2010-01-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

Okay, turns out, it wasn't that bad.
Will be spammed with photos' tags on FB soon. :)

F.CUZ and CoE.
January 7th and 8th.
EYE CANDIES OVERLOAD.

LeeU ish kinda kyuuuttee. :P

2010-01-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

May the Korean boybands have a MUCH MUCH better year ahead!
May DBSK's lawsuit be solved peacefully!
May there be less girl groups debuting and MORE BOYBANDS! :DD

2009-12-31T23:24:00.001+08:00

Aah, it's the time of the year again.

People going out to party all night, countdown to new year, wishing each other a happy new year, sending messages to everyone, countdown concerts, fireworks (which is environmental-unfriendly), and so on.

So with these final moments of 2009, what am I doing?

Well let's see what happened in 2009:

1. I cut my fringe. (random lols)

2. My results dropped like waterfall. ;__;

3. I stopped doing add maths & mod maths homework.

4. I talked about Valentines' Day, White Day and Black Day for English's oral test.

5. I emo-ed and deleted my blog (waaait, was it last year?? ._.)

6. I emo-ed more and cried more.

7. I stopped Japanese lessons. T___T

8. I finally got myself a ballet flats, oh no, it's 3 pairs of ballet flats! Sized 41 fuuiiiyoooh!!!

9. I ditched school more than ever. ._.

10. I became the treasurer of the class. ._____.

11. I got a pink VAIO from mom, dad and bro.

12. I climbed up 3 floors to my class every morning. T__T

13. I watched IRIS - the awesomest kdrama.

14. I watched Ninja Assassin in the cinema, by lying to the counter girl about my age.

15. I fell in love with MBLAQ.

16. I rediscovered my obsession for abs, abs like Joonie's. :D

17. I finally knew how teletubbies' song sounds like.

18. For the first time I joined an international fan forum - ABSOLUTE MBLAQ. :DDDDD

19. For the first time I learned a dance from Youtube.

20. I learned and danced to Gee whenever I'm alone.

21. I attempted to learn Genie. :X

22. I was depressed over DBSK's lawsuit.

23. I've come to know more about 2ONEDAY and Big Bang. (I'm so outdated :/)

24. I played with all sorts of nail polish and manicure - pale purple, BRIGHT red, DARK DARK blue, light blue, yellow, DARK DARK pink, cherry pink (hearts!), dark purple... etc.

25. I recorded my own singing and couldn't bear to listen much of them.

26. I played Taeyang's Wedding Dress without looking at the score, but also never completed the song properly LOL.

27. I memorized Yiruma's River Flows In You, and some misc song (._.) -- I could barely memorize songs back then.

28. I accidentally spoke in Korean to my Japanese teacher.

29. I joined SJBA YS and became a committee of TQG. :D

30. I nearly turned into lesbian when I first saw Amber from f(x).

31. I was infected with the Gee disease, and then the Sorry Sorry disease, and then the Genie disease, and then the I Don't Care disease, and then Ring Ding Dong disease, and then the teletubbies disease (wth!).

32. I attempted to dance to Abracadabra, Heartbeat, Sorry Sorry, Nobody, Genie, Ring Ding Dong and Mister, and failed.

33. I had a sad birthday.

34. I started singing in the bathroom.

35. I kind of discovered my love for SHINee's Jonghyun.

36. I found new spazzing partners. :P

37. I tried to memorize Taec's rap in Heartbeat, and the whole lyrics of Wedding Dress.

38. I got my first Coach bag from mom.

39. I kind of dumped Changminnie and went for Joonie, and then I cheated on him with Chansung, Junsu, Jokwon, Seungho, Seungri, Jung Yonghwa.... um.... hehehe ^^V

40. I ignored everything that has to do with Boys Over Flowers, Go Jun Pyo, Kim Hyun Joong, and Lee Minho.

41. I passed Grade 8 Theory with a merit.

42. That means I've officially finished my piano/music lessons.

43. --- OOHHH SMSes are flooding in. I can't concentrate anymore. *END*!

2009-12-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Geez, what's so nice about reunions and gatherings anyways?

Before the actual planning started, one brought up talks of having one and the next moment everyone got excited about having one, and then the next day everything gets forgotten.

Fine, at least some are still hoping to have one.

So I took up the job to plan, think of a day when most people could make it, a place to have fun, and activities to keep everyone occupied.

I had suggested a few dates, and ALL OF THEM had people objecting.

FINE.

Alas, a date is set. NO ONE OBJECTED TO IT.
Time. Venue. SET.

Emails, SMSes and even Facebook messages are sent, and an event is created on Facebook for convenience.

What happens?

Half of the people aren't replying, a few gave excuses, another few had good reasons, left with the ones who are really cooperating (thank you very much!).

I'd asked around if so-and-so knows so-and-so to get their contacts just to inform them about this whole thing and of all these, none gave a positive response.

That's it, I'm forgetting ALL future plans to reunite and MOVE ON.

The 1st ever official gathering? Who cares?

Even after 4 years, these people are still remembering things like "so-and-so stole my erasers last time!" or "so-and-so ditched me once -- no, twice!" or "so-and-so were talking bad about me!" or "HEY THAT BITCH STOLE MY BOYFRIEND!" or "wtf she was flirting with him!" or "THAT IDIOT MADE OUR CLASS LOOK SO BAD!" or "hey that bastard made teacher punish me!", so on and so forth.

And even after 4 years, I'd thought they had all grown up, become more mature, and instead of being vengeful they'd forgotten about all the hatred, but no.

No one gives a fucking damn about a lovely gathering with the ones we spent 6 (or like my case, 3) years of our childhood together.

And it's proven that I've wasted time pondering about what my friends have been doing these 4 years, missing the old times so much, trying to connect with them again on FB, and planning a gathering just for everyone.

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED.

2009-12-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

MBLAQ. IS. LOVE.

Especially Joonie. That boy can do ANY KIND OF SOUND EFFECT zomg. .___.
Mir, you gotta try a new gag already!

2009-12-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

It's DBSK's 6th anniversary today!

The rumors about them being divided into 2-3 are everywhere these days. Can you believe it? 5 DIVIDED INTO 2 AND 3. No matter where they are. Their communications are being monitored (WTF?!), managers (or assistants whatsoever) from Korea are following them everywhere in Japan, to make sure the there are no communications between 2-3.

It's still a rumor though.

It's also said that they even have a SCREEN to separate them at the backstage. WHAT THE HELL!?

Now THIS is overboard.

It's obvious that SME doesn't want the 2 to be influenced/convinced by the 3 and join in the disposition. Well, I hope they do. SME will be losing its money tree. *grins*

Meanwhile, Suju has the same crisis too. But a tad bit serious because Hankyung's a Chinese. Without him, SJM in China = nothing. And 6 out of 13 have been rumored to do the same.

And I'm dying to see what's (or who's) next.

2009-12-24T15:06:00.000+08:00

How do I feel upon hearing more Suju members joining Hankyung in the contract termination request?

I feel less shock and more excitement. *evil grins*

I'm starting to expect SNSD to do that too. :D
Well since everyone knows Yoona has a 13 year contract with SME, this kind of thing is bound to happen to SNSD as well, no?

It IS true that without SME they won't be where they are right now, but SME isn't treating them like humans.

No matter what, THEY ARE NOT BEING GREEDY.

Eff those who said Jaechunsu are greedy.

2009-12-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

TO YWH CASS UNNIE:
hehehe add me on facebook and msn. :D

---- /endrandom.

2009-12-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

They say Joonie first captures you with his smile, and then he enjoys your attention, and then kills you with his abs.

Okay, that's quite irrelevant to the video. =x

TAEYANG! :DDDDDDD
Forget the bloody fanletter to you and GD, I bought this drink just because of you! :DDDDDD
Or maybe because there were no Seungri left..... No GD either..... only Daesung and Taeyang.

But whatever! ANGIE LET'S GO BACK TO LOTTE MART IN 1U AGAIN. LOL.

Oh yeah I watched Ninja Assassin.

The flashback scenes I've been waiting for so long.

I KNEW WHAT JOONIE WAS GONNA SAY! HAHA.

From Joonie's cyworld minihompy. :D

His handwriting is soooooooooooooo cute! LOL.
His "y"! HAHA.

And uhhh Idol Army. Aaaaaaaaaaaarrggggghh. I won't survive from it. :(

2009-12-17T15:29:00.001+08:00

I think I'll die watching Joonie with other girl groups.
X(
I don't think I'll ever survive watching Idol Army Season 5.

I wanted to spazz about Ninja Assassin and Joonie and Art of Seduction and random stuff....

But after I saw Joonie holding T-ara's Hyomin's hands while ice skating......

I just wet ice skating with friends the day before yesterday. Learned for 2 hours with the help of -omg, younger!- friends/hoobaes. Embarrassed myself three times, falling onto my butt, especially when a stranger guy helped me up BUT I FELL BACK AGAIN and he helped me again. :$ So I have bruises on my legs and ankles, no blisters thanks to double socks. And a bruise on my knee. And I'm suffering from bad muscle aches from my right arm up to my shoulder.

I went back home, exhausted, cleared my thoughts on the embarrassing falls, and automatically....... I started daydreaming about Joonie helping me gain my balance on ice blades, teaching me the tricks, holding my hand all the time in case I land on my butt.

The next day (yesterday) I was out the whole day so I saved the daily MBLAQ updates for today. And today........ just when I was drooling over the eye candy clips and pics..... I came across THIS.

No, you heard it right -- that was the sound of my glass heart breaking into pieces. T__T
Followed by my wails. T___________________T

I am officially an anti-Hyomin.

2009-12-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

The past 7 days was very pleasant. In fact, I burnt the most cash in a week - first time ever.

You would be jealous if I listed all my goodies. Hahahahahahaha. I'll keep them to myself.

I'm starting feel the Christmas mood for once after a friend of mom's migrated to LA years ago. I remember receiving many gifts every year from her. But her family moved and we stopped celebrating altogether. Even the Christmas tree broke its leg. -.-

/endnonsense.

Angie's birthday is coming!
I don't know if she would use the present I'm going to give. :S
It's so attention-catching lmaaao.

Oh well. After all, I like weird things. :PPPP

Oh yeah, I need to change my purse.

Likeee, NOW!

It's....... so........ wrecked. -_____-

And Christmas is coming~
*hints* ;))))

2009-12-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

Okay, so there are words out there, saying that SME is the one that forbids DBSK from contacting each other. Huuh. So they can't talk to each other. And in interviews, only HoMin is allowed to speak. WHAAAAAAAAAAT?

Someone please burn down that shitty company.

/endfrustration.

Oooooooooooooh I'm hooked on After School. Because I'm amazed with the synchronization and power of their Because Of You performance. :D

Gahee unnie is hot. xDDDDDD

And I can only comprehend 너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 without the help of translations. :DDDDDDDD *gets shot*

2009-11-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

Take a look at Jae's face at 1:03 - 1:04.

I hope I'm not being too paranoid but I'm supported by some other facts as well. Jae looking at the ground all time? Yunho did ALL the talking. And the greeting at the beginning? I don't call that warm. The Tohoshinki I knew doesn't greet us like that.

Some say Changminnie stood so close to Yunho was because they're sharing an earpiece, and that Jae doesn't have one, hence the 2:3 gap and Jae being quiet and lost and clueless(?!) but looking SO SAD? I'm sure that even if he's clueless and lost he wouldn't look THAT sad.

It's so heartbreaking to see them being... DISCONNECTED from each other.

I mean, it's nice to see all standing together on stage again - that's we've all been waiting for anyway. But seeing them look like they're forced to be together.......... no I can't take that.

I've always been proud of these boys and that I'm a fan of them, and now they're breaking apart, it's like ripping my soul apart. These days I've been hearing things like, "Hey, DBSK's disbanding lol."

EFF YOUUUU. They aren't disbanding YET!

Thank goodness I found another happy pill to console myself - MBLAQ.

And I'm losing the faith. Did they hear what Cassiopeia sang for them? Won't they change after hearing it?

2009-11-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

OMG.

Joonie please recover quickly!

2009-11-24T21:20:00.001+08:00

I wonder where all the clicks come from. Hmm.
They don't leave footsteps here. Hmmmmmm.

2009-11-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

I wonder what is Joonie doing in South Korea now.

Sigh.

It makes me hopeless to think that I'm wasting my life here doing things I don't like and wishing for things I like.... and I'm just waiting for them to come.

But what can I do?

I feel so lifeless.

I'm only shuffling through facebook, allkpop, youtube, z-degrees, and each time I refresh, nothing new appears.

I should be in bed now.

But when I lie on my bed, I stare at the dark ceiling thinking of what I'd be in Korea at the moment.

Then I'd close my eyes and start imagining things out of habit.

Eventually I'll fall asleep, and wake up, and there goes the routine again.

For the first time I think of waiting for 2012 to come and try not to survive from it.

Because I don't like...... myself.

2009-11-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

Premise 1: Beware of fangirls.
Premise 2: Debbie is a fangirl.
Conclusion: Beware of Debbie.

That is chapter ....... something from mod math, yo.

Anyway. MAMA was quite.... surprisingly enough for my spazzing needs. Despite the absence of Homin. Jaechunsu's presence didn't excite me anyway.

SME later backfired that Jaechunsu had no right to receive the award on behalf of DBSK when the ceremony ended.

Uggghh, don't get me started again on that issue. The war between them is getting meaningless. -_______-

MBLAQ didn't won any award, but they performed Bad Guy. :DDDDD

Joonie didn't dance though. :(

And Joonie was limping on the red carpet. My poor Joonie. :(

I would've spammed my post with videos but I'm kind of procrastinating now. Bleh.

I had an outing to KL Bird Park today, and I saw birds fighting. :S

And I'm exhausted.

Aahahah, this post is pointless, actually.

2009-11-20T22:13:00.001+08:00

Pffft. So there are rumors going around that SM forged dongbang's signatures.
Knew something like this would come up.
Changmin and Yunho will NEVER, EVER, say things like that in all these chaos.
SM must be stupid enough to make us believe that they are on their side by making them sign a statement and claim it's theirs. Pffft.

For the first time I'm grateful that I didn't get selected in the audition 2 years ago.

Way to go, SM.

2009-11-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

What happened to my creativity? I can't write things like before - before my emotional breakdown and the deletion of my entire blog.

I logged in to Imeem once in a long while, and I looked at my Imeem profile once again after a long, long time. That little description of me, I don't even have a single memory of me typing those lines by myself. I thought someone hacked into my account. But I checked the other infos, nothing else was altered. Why would a hacker beautify the "About Me"? And I really mean "BEAUTIFY". I wouldn't type like that....... for now. I remember I had similar about-mes here and there.... But I had almost no memory of this.

Anyway, I am so sick of all the issues surrounding DBSK. I remember CreBeau's threats clearly. They would expose SME's actions. But when? I've been waiting for a good little news on the lawsuit. But each time I see something new about it, it wouldn't be a positive one.

I don't believe Yunho and Changmin would say that.
No. I don't. I seriously don't. The statements were printed, not handwritten. They just signed it. They were probably forced to anyway.

And I really really really believe that DBSK's friendship is strong enough to overcome this. They do want to continue as 5 as well. But it seems like this is going nowhere near to peace. JaeChunSu hasn't said anything clear about this either. There HAS to be something behind this.

As if these frustrations aren't enough, Joonie hurt his ankle today (yesterday, to be exact; it's 12am already). I was actually anticipating MAMA when I thought, "MAMA is gonna suck so badly with the boycotts from big artists, and MAMA itself sounds bad enough already." Just because MBLAQ would be performing. Though not a special stage (not sure), and not like they'll surely get an award or something, but at least that makes something for me to get excited for.

So it seems like MAMA has nothing for me to watch out for.

On the brighter side, Ninja Assassin is 6 days away.

Now THIS will be the only thing I'm looking forward to.

2009-11-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE A GUY OR A GIRL.

YOU MUST WATCH THIS.

AT LEAST ONCE!

Po~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You hottie with a cute smile and an awesome voice and body! Stole my heart in just a few minutes, made Changmin cry because I cheated on him. Poor him.

Joonie is LOVE!

MBLAQ, officially my new obsession.

2009-11-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

Hello people, I'm still alive.

I think it's a good thing now that I have a lot of things to say. Not that much.... but at least I have the feeling of typing nonsense again.

I realize Facebook statuses aren't enough to express everything everyday. LOL.

I think Chu~ is nice. :D Sulli's so cute. Despite the envy. She's too cute you gotta give her some love. ;_;

Satu Suara is stuck in my head even when all choir activities are over for the year.

BEG's Sign's dance is not so nice but it's still addictive. :P Simple moves. And they use a lot of back dancers. o_o

Chocolate Love is love. D: Never get bored of it.

MBLAQ's Oh Yeah is sort of too repetitive but wuddaheck, Joon is HOT!

I don't like G.O. :(

Zhang Liyin's BACK! :D Disappointed with the MV though.

My voice is different when I'm singing now. D:

DBSK MUST WIN THE LAWSUIT.

I don't trust SM.

I don't believe those statements with HoMin's signatures are truly from their hearts.

2PM's Tired Of Waiting!! :D Yeah I'm tired of waiting for DBSK's lawsuit to end and for them to be on stage as one again.

JONGHYUN WAS DIAGNOSED WITH SWINE FLU! :( Get better soon, oppa.

So YehSung sang JongHyun's part in the beginning and the bridge on Music Bank. He didn't dance much, did he? I wasn't wearing specs so I couldn't see the TV clearly. Nyek.

Park Bom's You And I is LOVE! Aweeessomme songg and MV. :D It's SO much better than Dara's Kiss. No offense to Dara unnie....

I think I'm getting bored of Oh Yeah.

But I wanna see Joon.

But MBLAQ is still so new there aren't many videos of them on Youtube. T_____T

Do it, do it, chu~

The guy who comes out at 0:59. :)
LEE JOON. *drools*

Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah~

2009-11-01T16:19:00.000+08:00

2009-10-21T15:26:00.000+08:00

How awesome would it be if you hadn't stepped into my life before?
Yes maybe I'm a hypocrite, I should disappear.
But maybe you're one too.

2009-10-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

Hello world. *hears echoes*

Is there anybody reading my blog anyway? *echoes again*

Hellooooo? *echoes*

Sigh. I don't wanna delete my blog. But I don't want to post while no one bothers to read. If no one's reading, why the hell am I wasting my time listening to my own echoes here?

2009-10-15T16:07:00.001+08:00

Disgusted.

Ugh.

Should I just delete my blog? SHOULD I?

2009-10-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

You don't know how much I treasure photos.

You haven't lost memorable photos before, that's why.

So I forgive you for that.

I do not deserve a bad mood just because of YOU anyway.

Just so you know, PHOTOS are captured moments which can never be retained.
No matter what expression you had in the photo, you can never capture it again with the same degree of happiness in your smile or the same degree of lightning or the same angle of shooting whatsoever.

Photos speak a thousand words (and more than that).

Just because you think you looked bad in a group photo doesn't mean others looked as bad as you too.

If you don't like it, crop yourself out.

Don't say you don't like something being cropped or it gets ugly if it's cropped.

You can refrain from cropping it, but I would keep it as original.

Because it was something that I can never have again, something that, when combined with few other people and funny acts, could bring happiness to me when looking back at it. It shows how I was during that time, that minute, that second, with my best friends and buddies, my high school friends and life.

And when time has gone away, you can never live that moment again.

Think thrice before you delete any photos, please and thank you very much.

2009-09-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

Wow it's quite some time since my last post huh.

Well now, I'm writing again to prove that I'm still living strong..... maybe, maybe not.

September's coming to an end, and I'm so happy yet worried and hoping. Hoping for a miracle.

It's been a bad month, a very bad one indeed, to me, myself, and to the Korean boybands.

First it was JaeChunSu's lawsuit against SM. Fans from the whole globe sat in front of the computer for days and nights, waiting for updates on the development of the lawsuit. Being sleep deprived, worried, afraid, heartbroken..... not good.

Only cassies who've gone through all those moments with DBSK since their debut would understand the video. And possibly cry for days and nights after watching it.

We, as cassies, all know about the boys' pasts and hardships they went through before debut. All of the effort they put in for their dreams were so fruitful. Record sales, popularity, awards, and recognition as one of the top idol groups in Asia, and maybe the whole world.

All of that, are being threatened by the possibility of disbandment.

And we're still waiting for a decision to be made by the court. It's estimated to be made by the end of September. And today's the 29th.

Still keeping the faith, and hoping for a miracle.

Then Jaebeom left 2pm.
Because of the deed of a ridiculous netizen.

I'm not and was never a fan of 2pm and their music, but I was touched by the Hottests' dedication towards Jaebeom, until I think I'm more of a fan of the Hottests instead of 2pm.

Nonetheless, I think Jaebeom is hot.
But that's too late now. I can only spazz on old videos of Jaebeom.

I support Hottests all the way and I believe in them.
They will bring Jaebeom back, just one more minute to 2pm.

I'm like feeling what the Hottests are feeling now.
The only difference is that Jaebeom already left 2pm and DBSK's just one more step to disbandment. They are hoping for Jaebeom to come back and I'm hoping for DBSK's lawsuit to end peacefully without disbandment. They're both miracles to us fans of both groups.

Still, keep the faith and keep hoping.

Then Kangin got involved in an assault case.
It was in PUBLIC, caught on CCTV.
His career had nearly gone down the drain.
Screw the ones who picked a fight on him.
Seems like the morons have forgotten that the elves could kill. They've made an innocent girl commit suicide, what more a moron who picks fights on the WRONG PERSON?
Thank goodness his action was proved as an act of defense.
Not nice to mess with the elves lar, hmm?

September's finally coming to an end, it's nice to have only 30 days in September.
And I'm not digging the new girl groups that are like mushrooms growing rapidly after a downpour. Seriously, too much.

Talking bout Seriously......

Man, those who've known me for long would know what I want to say about this video.
HE'S JUST SO CUTE RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT. :D

Still, keep the faith. :)

2009-09-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

Whenever I'm unhappy I just feel like growing up in a minute and in the next I'd plot my revenge.

I have this "secret world" (now not secret anymore lol) in my mind, where all my fantasies take place. Everything I imagine can change from one distant to another in a day, because they follow my mood. It's like I'm looking at myself in a different dimension, thinking of the same thing as I do now, but of a different age and better than what I am now.

For a second I want to fast forward the time, but when my thoughts are distracted and I'm now out of my "world", I'd wish I was younger instead.

I wished time stopped during my childhood, the time when I was lounging on the couch, switching channels between Disney, Nickelodeon, and Cartoon Network, not thinking of anything else besides Winnie the Pooh's showtime.

... Those days were so much more bearable.

2009-09-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

I've been ignoring my homework completely lately.
Ever since the mid-year holidays, I became totally infested with procrastination since then.
During that holiday, I did nothing but just playing Restaurant City or Sims 2.
When back at school, I don't do homework immediately on that day itself.
I piled them up and ended up copying at school blindly instead.
And that remains til now, but worse.

I skipped school, and that was when the swine flu frenzy going on here in our neighboring schools. Skipping school that time was common. Overall attendance was poor. Nevertheless, the teachers teach as usual, even when the attendance wasn't satisfying.

I missed add math lessons, mod math lessons, bio lessons, some physics lessons (I think), and the not-so-important ones which are BM and Moral.

I got left out in almost everything.
Thank goodness the rate of absorption of my braincells are high.
The big-great-brother taught me Differentiation in one and a half hour's time.

But that was not enough.
Problem solving haunts me.
Mod math came haunting me too.

Angles, planes, rates of changes, tangents......

Now, everyone is discussing problem solving questions day and night, while I'm the only one pretending that I know everything. But I try to fit in as well, taking in everything I see and I hear from them.

But it's not helping much either.

Maybe someone could be kind enough to take me out and tutor me?

Meanwhile, I'm stuck with a long list of things I want to do.
Finish watching Mr. Brain, Rosy Business, Gokusen 3; finish reading Memoirs of a Geisha, 1 Liter of Tears, PS I Love You and some random stuff from the bookshelf.

And not to forget that my brain blocks anything regarding history from conquering my memory cells. My memory cells are pitiful too, they hate history a lot and yet they're forced to take them in. Saddening, ain't it?

I am forcing myself to do things I don't like.
But at the same time, I'm being led by the procrastinating devil.
It's telling me that Mr. Brain is an awesome Japanese drama, with many facts about neurology, combined with some wickedly addictive sense of humors.
It's irresistible. T_T

2009-09-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

Right now, somewhere, someone
is in pain, all alone
Passing through a sleepless night
Until the light shines on your heart
Let's nestle close together, so that we could sleep
Like a melody and harmony in love

For someones sake
we are here
Although we can only achieve small things
Even just for 1 second
We still want to stop all the tears in this world
And turn them all into smiles

Keep loving, and keep walking,
We've been believing that we will be able to convey these overflowing feelings
Even before we were born, we knew that we would meet
And that we would be searching for our dreams together

[RAP]

The moment when we are able to compose the sparkling sound
We will be able to forget all the sorrow
Melody and harmony
You are always by our side
Giving us courage and hope

Thanks to you
Thank you forever
These glittering feelings are your gifts to me
You've taught me how to support each other, to watch over each other
And that Im not lonely

The love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
I want to convey it to you
Forever and ever

My music is my life
For you, for you, smile
Because our hearts will link together
My life is wonderful
Forever, forever

Starting from here

Keep loving, and keep walking
We have been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings

Thanks to you
Thank you forever
These glittering feelings are your gifts to me

The love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
I want to convey it to you
Forever and ever

lalala

Right now, somewhere, someone is in pain, all alone
Passing through a sleepless night
Until the light shines on your heart
Let's nestle close together, so that we could sleep
Like a melody and harmony in love

Aaaaaaweessomme.

With these sparkling eyes + dazzling smiles, who needs a dose of Edward Cullen?!?!
These are the best things in the world now. ;)

And on top of all that, THEY composed this beautiful song. :)

2009-09-05T13:35:00.000+08:00

How nice would it be if I lost my memory?

I bet that I'll be happier then.

2009-09-01T13:13:00.000+08:00

Rainy day signifies an emo day.

Well, for me, at least.

Sorry about today, girls.

Winnie the Pooh cheers me up! :D

2009-08-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

This is not what I expected. =/

But it's still awesome! :D :D :D

Bom is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO pretty.

Awesome makeup artists.

Now THIS is what I've been waiting for!

:D :D :D

That was so coooooooooooolie! :D

OMGGGGGGGGGGG the ending smile is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE! :D

And you seriously can't deny the fact that GD's enjoying himself. IT'S OBVIOUS.

2009-08-30T10:56:00.000+08:00

f(x), the new girl group under SME.
Holy crap, I have mixed feelings ~~(and scary feelings)~~ about them.

First, I'm envious that there are so lucky people (and younger than me @$&^@#!) who are debuting as an artist under SME.

Second, seeing younger people going on my dreampath makes me feel OLD. And useless.

Third I'm sooooooooooooooo scared Amber would turn me into a lesbian. =X

When I say lesbian I think you could already guess who's Amber.

X______X *takes more more more more doses of DBSK*

OMG.
GD WILL BE PERFORMING HEARTBREAKER.
FOR THE FIRST TIME.
TONIGHT.
ON INKI.

He and his dancers are already preparing!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
CAN'T WAIT.

2009-08-29T20:25:00.001+08:00

No offense but Chunnie here reminds me of Michael Jackson. T____T

Other than that, Jae's as gorgeous as ever. :D

Their voices are a plus-plus! :D

And to top it off, it's composed by the two of them and is chosen as the theme song for Hello Kitty's 35th Anniversary.

Yeah, sounds super isn't it. SO GIVE IT A LISTEN! :D

2009-08-28T12:54:00.000+08:00

Omg, this is so random. Hahahahah.

One of my favourite songs! :D

Aaaaahhh, before Sunghee left the group. :(

2009-08-27T22:18:00.001+08:00

My blog looks depressing. I really should do something.

And I really thought of something. :D

I have a friend who's finding Korean songs interesting, asking me to recommend more songs. So I sent Youtube URLs of my favourites, besides TVXQ, because I really think she needs to explore more genres. .__.

But, as I expected, she rejected Epik High, Big Bang, 2AM and 2PM.

So I dug out BoA's old songs for her. Because I really think BoA's older songs worth more listening. =.=

As I was digging out some nice songs for her, I suddenly thought of an idea. 8D

An idea that's not to be told but to be observed. :D

HAHAHA. Don't ask.

I still love this song.

Donghae in the MV is a big bonus. 8D

2009-08-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

今晚有很多很多话想说，却在一秒内一气烧尽……

我是爱哭鬼。

原本的我无论什么事都可以忍住眼泪，现在的我好像泪泉坏了，怎么告诉自己不要哭都没用，极小的事也可使我哭得稀里哗啦的。

我是不是变得脆弱了？

怎么都是我最容易被欺负？

还是我骗了自己说我被欺负？

被抛弃我都经历过了很多次，可是怎样才能坚持自己不被被抛弃的感觉影响呢？

为什么我总是不会从中学习？

我是不是遗传了妈妈和外婆爱发脾气的个性？

江山易改，本性难移，我又怎么改变自己？

我不想像《烈火雄心III》的阿成一样，固执到一无所有。

可是谁又可以告诉我，我该怎么做？我到底是怎么了？

2009-08-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

This is SO GOOD, I can't help but post it up and spread the Dong Bang love.

How the hell can one resist falling in love with these boys?!
I don't understand why when some of my friends just don't love them.

Oh well, different tastes, I suppose.

But you just gotta love them for their hard work and passion.

Cassiopeias unite! Keep the faith! We must make sure our boys stay together even after the lawsuit ends. :)

And prepare for a possible war against SM. Mwahahahahahahaha.

Dong Bang Shin Ki, HWAITING!
사랑해!

P/S: The background music makes me semangat Cassiopeia membara-bara. LOL. Seriously. *salute the fans who made this video*

2009-08-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

Whenever I view my blog, it feels like it's crying for me, wanting me to type more. Like last time.

Hmm.

Have a dose of GD? 8D

I THINK I can copy Jessica's mascara in the Nylon photoshoot.
Now I wanna find some closeups of GD and observe his makeup. HAHAHA.
Damn cool.

You're my heart-heart-heart-heart-heartbreaker!

2009-08-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

Is my blog my own little place? Where I spit out all my secrets?

Not much of the secrets though.

I just typed a whole of load of stuff and decided to delete them. Oh well.

2009-08-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

我会笑了。

头发，头发，快点长出来！

2009-08-20T17:41:00.000+08:00

如果我的缺席是值得开心、值得说笑的话，那我该找另一个天堂了。其实也不难，隔壁班就是我的避风港了，也可成为属于我的圈子。在这里有时会觉得不服气，自卑，落寞，有时候有种被隔离的感觉。或许我要求太高了吧。可是我又容易生气，又容易被说服。问题可能就在这里：我生气了后我好像成了隐形人，活在自己的世界，可是自己又很想很想回到我原来的世界，原是属于我开心的世界，但我好像找不到一个入口，一个欢迎我的入口。

唉，算了。明年去隔壁班就是了。

2009-08-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

其实，怎样才算是知己？知己又和好友有什么差别？

为了要发泄或解闷而寄了好几封无聊短讯却没收到半封回复，是好友吗？是知己吗？难道同伴在另一方孤独地发呆，等着时光流过，想找个人闲聊一下也不行吗？等着等着却没有半个回复，很愉快吗？时间是不是会过得更快？

为了要交书而不让你借抄，就是不要和你一起被罚，是好友吗？是知己吗？难道可以和好友一同做事，无论是好是坏，就不是一种快乐吗？一定要等到大学了做工了才后悔没有好好珍惜白衣蓝裙的时光，做些只有穿着白衣蓝裙才可做的事吗？

要逃课，也不第一时间通知你，一起留在家玩网络游戏，是好友吗？是知己吗？难道要把你留在井底下，连逃课这法子也不知道，也没想过，让你在学校一个人对着空气闲聊说笑，自己哭了也没人知道？就算是逃了课，也没问过今天是否有功课、老师是否又发牢骚、同学是否又搞大笑，半个短讯也没寄，这……算不算是关心？

一天你觉得不舒服，没来上课，却又没收到任何关心的话语，又不知道当天发生了什么趣事，又不知道要做什么功课，这是好友吗？是知己吗？你失踪了一天，半句“为什么”也没有，这根本是朋友吗？难道你在家休养，到了学校下课时间也在想着伙伴儿在学校吃着什么饭，挂念着抢鸡肉的时光，可是却又没人想起你在家是否在见周公，而认为你的缺席是一种“没事儿”？

还有最简单的一句，"sharing is caring"，这句话存在吗？不分享秘密、乐趣、话题，还算是好友吗？算是知己吗？

突然好想变成空气，等到没有了人们才发觉它的存在，是赐给人们的幸福。

2009-08-16T18:38:00.001+08:00

AWEEEEEEESOOMEEEEEEEEEEE.

:D

2009-08-14T14:41:00.000+08:00

I just realized that my blog has only 11 posts. O.o

What had happened to my blogging spirit?
I had 350++ posts last time, with at least 2 posts a week.

Anyway, sakkai-poh was absent for 3 days. YAY.

But H1N1 is really scary. :(

难道世界末日真的快到了？

2009-08-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether to cry or laugh now.

Just.... hope that things get better?

2009-07-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

Today, we've got a new teacher who will be teaching us BM, who has obvious grammatical errors when she speaks to us in BM.

In primary year 1, we were taught that "What is your name?" is "Siapa nama kamu?" or "Nama kamu siapa?"

Today, she walked in, got pissed when Reuben sat down right after greeting her, ordered him to stand, and repeatedly questioned, "Nama kamu apa?"

BM, in my opinion, has the weirdest grammar rules ever.
And they keeeeeeep changing it time after time ~~(to make us keep changing books, in straight, let them earn more money)~~, which makes us go all "WTF?!" when the teacher thinks we're wrong while we think we're right since reference books and/or other sources say so.

So, let's excuse that.

Then she stressed so much that she's aliran sains, and that she's supposed to teach Chemistry (and in English), so she won't accept super simple and straightforward answers when she asks us things; she demanded full explanation to it.

Oohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh finally, what an understanding teacher who's aware that youngsters these days can't answer wholly or think critically.

But she's just waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to lan si to impress me with that.

Making fun of our names is just.... so.... WRONG.
Kah Hong became Kha Kho, Melissa became Massa (?!), and she thinks Angie spelled her surname "N G" (which could be a pun), but who the hell spells out their surnames when asked of their names?!
Even Shubash got frustrated with repeating his name over and over and over again, and she STILL couldn't get it right, so he said, "aaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhh nevermind lah!" and continued with his answer to her question.

And we have to see her everyday.
Like that.
The Malays are lucky they don't have to see her for another 3 periods of Moral.
GOSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

And not to forget she wasted our A4 papers!

One whole clean A4 paper, only used to write:

Nama: .....
D.O.B: xx/xx/xxxx
*our answers to her question*

And there was only one answer we needed to write.

Should've used a highlighter to write them in size 72pt to make full use of the whole page (maybe even the back page too!).

Oh well.

Overall, I suppose my day went all right.

And oh em gee, this is going to be a habit to post videos on every end-of-post!

Sooooooooo complicated moves. :(

2009-07-24T20:16:00.000+08:00

I got strucked by cupid's arrow AGAIN.

This time it's WORSE!

Probably the worst.

Hottie had "some" gagals for midterm.

Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Feeds self with something else awesome!

Of ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the things they talked about, I could only comprehend 5% of them. Hahahaha.

2009-07-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

I had Japanese test last Friday and it ROCKED! LOOOOOL.
I didn't expect it to be as easy as that....
Thanks to the last minute revision! HAHA.
Everyone was busy memorizing self-introduction before everything started.
Omoshirokatta!

Then while everyone was taking paper test, teacher was having oral test outside.
She chose this classroom on purpose hhahahahahaha! And set two chairs in the corridor just for that! So that she can keep an eye on us.
But I was in the blind spot. :D
Probably because she trusts me. :DDDDDDD

And Steff finished her paper earlier than me!!

And Chris was cracking his head on how to answer the easiest questions. :P

So it all ended well, for me. :)
It's just too bad that this might be the last Japanese test I'm having in ICLS.
Hmmm, still thinking about JLPT though. :D

Today the three spices went on a karaoke outing. :D
Finally, the three of us together-gether. :)

We went to Amp Square, and found that it was super cheap.
So we went in.

First song, first minute, the mic started to squeak and make funny noises at times. -_-
But it was tolerable, thank goodness.

We sang the must-sing songs like:
Heal The World
We Are The World(?)
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
My Heart Will Go On
So What
Hot N Cold
I Kissed a Girl
Because of You
Breakaway
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Love Story
If I Were A Boy
When You Say Nothing At All
Mamma Mia
Dancing Queen
Bleeding Love
Better in Time
Unfaithful
Take A Bow

And other songs like:
Mambo No. 5 (but it was all rap so we skipped halfway)
Lady Marmalade (skipped too)
Las Ketchup (skipped too lol, it wasn't the English version)
Womanizer (skipped because the video was unbearable =.=)
Buttons (skipped because it was unbearable too)
Jai Ho
Just Dance
Umbrella
Crush
etc. etc. etc.

That's all that popped into my head.
There were other Chinese songs in the end when we were rushing to finish our playlist lol.

Overall, the sound system was BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD.
But cheap.
Food was so-so.

Still, Neway ftw. :) :)

But I know this crush ain't goin' away--way--ey---ey---ey---~~~!

Nononononono that was random. =X

2009-07-19T11:14:00.000+08:00

Oh, someone PM-ed me on Youtube, asking for Sejahtera Malaysia scores.
To the past requests I said no I don't have them.
But this time, I was tired of lying, so I tried to be honest. So I said I can't give it out. (didn't mention why at first, it was because I respect my teacher and her hardwork so I don't want to distribute it without her consent)
Oh then she replied, "wah jahat.... mungkin kau muslim tapi i kristian so u tak bagi.... SOB T_T"
@&@*#^*@&%$^%@# I hope I taught her a lesson. First line was, "I dare say you are a racist."

She must've not seen my other video, the Gee dance, I AM OBVIOUSLY A CHINESE.

*takes a deeeeeeeeeeep breath*
Not worth spoiling my day.

I DON'T CARE.

Though that context is different lalala.

I don't care eh eh eh eh eh~

2009-07-16T20:21:00.000+08:00

They'd say, "behave yourself" and some other swear words that became my nickname all these years. But I still get unpleasant words about me every time, when I put on my poker face or my charcoal face, even when I put on my usual happy face.

It's like fate wanting me to be a sociopath, and plan my suicide someday like Reuben does. No need to plot for revenge.

So this is how I am, being myself, but I realize no one can accept me the way I am, except the minority. Thank Buddha I still have them with me.

I let my mind wander today, from a string of sad thoughts and rough words to happy mood, when I forced the unwanted things out of my head. Lucky I'd had a better afternoon than morning, around someone who cliques easily with me, somehow I felt a bit secure with her. It's odd actually.

Okay, Pinkie's only having 8 minutes of life left.
Her adapter's not back, not until tomorrow NIGHTTTTT. Close to midnight.
Til then, I'll be all over the net, MSN, Youtube, Imeem, Facebook, bloghoppings, allkpop-ping, Z-degrees-ing, and finding all the bookmarks I have had. :)

May my day tomorrow be waaaaaaay better than yesterday, 'cause yesterday was better than today.

2009-07-14T18:07:00.000+08:00

Ughh!! Japanese test is just THIS FRIDAY!!! And there's like soooooooooooooooooooooooo many things to remember!!!

TOTEMO TAIHEN NE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's go eat mui choi kao yok!!
:D
*drools*

2009-07-13T18:55:00.000+08:00

*screams*

Another goodie!
I know it's quite outdated, but wuddaheck!! It still reached 1st place on Oricon!!
YEAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! GO DONGBANG!!!!!

Changminnieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Jaejoongieeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Aaw mannn I miss my men so much!!!

2009-07-11T09:48:00.000+08:00

Bye bye Maths & Science in English.
I am sure you will be back soon, in a coupla years.
But you won't be here any longer then.
Later you would be gone again and back again and gone and back.
That's how we study here, in Malaysia. *angelic smile*

--------------------

OH EM GEE it reflects!

*jakun*

aslkfjdsvklcxvmncxmghetuoewr it's so cooooooooooooool!

And pink.

THANK YOU DADDY MOMMY AND KOR KOR! :D

*jumps*!

2009-07-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

Again and again I fought my instincts successfully, not ending up throwing the whole laptop or phone or anything at all - hard on the floor.
Again and again I lost my precious, priceless photos which, cannot be taken once again with the exact same angles and facial expressions, when time is irreversible, and especially the ones taken with Kalyana Mitras.
I haven't even got the chance to view my gallery and look at every single pretty smile on our faces.

I seriously have no luck dealing with electronics.
It sucks when this generation is all about globalization and internet and superhighspeed broadbands and etcetra etcetra.
It makes me look like I'm born in the wrong era - these things are clearly not my thing anymore.

2009-06-30T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hello peoples.

I finally reopened my blog after godknowshowlong of hiatus.
Ha, you were anticipating me, weren't you?
Puhhh-leassee, even if it's a no, don't just read and exit okay.
You don't wanna see just a blank page saying "on hiatus" again, do you?
But most probably not.
The next time I get flushed into the toilet bowl again you'll probably end up with Blogger saying "Blog removed" on www.madeofdebbie.blogspot.com.

So, I've been rotting over the weekends and my free times on weekdays, so much work and yet so much time to procrastinate - wrong perception, of course. But still, none of the time I used to fix my blogging mood.

I camped at Jin Loong Shan, Rawang, two weeks ago; it was TDC 11.
It was fun, but honestly, I didn't enjoy as much as last year.

After TDC 11, I've come to loathe flour, water games, Kelly Clarkson's My Life Would Suck Without You, blindfolds, buses without rooms for luggages, duckwalking and sleeping in the corner of the room on the floor. And maybe, butterflies.

Just the next day after the camp ended, campers went back to school with panda's eyes and deep eyebags.
And ever since the holidays, I was so not used to homework; whatever happened to my adapting skills? I still have last two weeks' homework waiting in the pile.

On the other hand, my Nokia 5300's screen cracked a long gap in the middle. I don't think I sat on it......
But I still got a new phone anyway. :D This time it's 5130 Xpress Music.
I still haven't girly-fy it with colourful phone straps and furry charms with bells and Dongbang's themes..... Oh well.

I haven't been sitting on my own chair in the past month.
It's so depressing having to stare at a dead computer.
It died, partly.
No one bothered to find out the exact cause (seems to be the graphic card, according to a friend and my uncle) and fix it, but instead they're hunting for a new laptop for me. *grins*
So I'll forget about my uh, precious camwhore pics.
Um. Quite saddening to have to say bye bye to my uh, pretty pics. *hides*
I've burnt most of my files into CDs though. :D
But the newest photos.... :(

Sorry girls, our camwhore photos taken during Hari Guru 2009 is also uh, gone.

Back to the happier sides, I've finished reading the Twilight Saga woooooots.

A while ago, the gang were addicted to a series of white-themed Chinese books, the "white series", they call it.
Now, everyone of us are catching up on the fire and are borrowing the black-themed Edward Cullen books here and there.
And I am the only one who had finished all 4 books. For now. :D Zoe's on the way to The End.
I went around attempting to shower them with spoilers while they closed their eyes and yell nonsense to wipe out my words from their heads. :3

Oh my, seems like this post is enough to ignite my writing hype.
This is only part of what I want to write.
Beware, I haven't write anything about Dongbang Junior yet. ;)

Oh by the way, peoples who have linked me on their blog please, please, please, please, please leave a note on my tagboard. My old HTML codes were stuck in that computer along with the links. I'll only link those I remember, for now. So if you realize yours is left out, please, please, please, please leave a note. I don't wanna owe anyone. T_T